The Crunch of a Green Bean

I miss my family so much. It is such an odd experience growing older and away from your adolescence and childhood. I hate this ache that sits deep in my chest- longing for a home...my home...and a family. I am glad, however, that I am growing farther away from the mistakes of my youth...haha. But growing older, becoming an adult. Scary.

There is such a split in me that I desire independence, yet long for family. Not just community but, family. Ah, or maybe it is just grace, or God even for that matter. To have people know me and love me despite all my flaws- acceptance . Perhaps it is the Lord that I desire the most, because he does know us and love us despite all our flaws.

I am currently reading Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis. If you haven't read it I would suggest it.

Zach, Steve, and I went out to Skid Row yesterday to begin filming a documentary. We met several new people, one of which has graduated university with a degree in theology. I am reminded that we as Christians are above nothing- meaning no sin or situation. That I, too, could earn a bible degree and still in someway end up on Skid Row or something similar... keeps you humble, huh?



I suppose those are my thoughts for now, I must study for an Old Testament midterm...have a pleasant afternoon.